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Joya with the Vibologie Frequency Temple here, and I want to start sharing some talks about the experiences I've had in the last year, and they've been so sacred and so mysterious, so shrouded in mystical mystery, and wonder that I've actually been a little hesitant to talk about them. Because, you know, I question myself, not about the experiences, but in how I'm experiencing the experience, meaning I don't want to think of myself as being special or set apart or chosen or any of those words that people like to use for their ego. And I really am always checking in with my ego, and especially in this experience, I've been checking in a lot about spiritual narcissism, because that's so rampant now, and so I'm always checking in deeply, and especially because I feel like, if I'm talking about anything having to do with spirituality, which is your soul guiding someone's soul through sharing your own experiences, is something to be taken really, really, really seriously and reverently, like it comes with a big responsibility. I really feel the weight of that and so that's why it's been a while for me to sit in this and, as some of you know if you follow me on social media, that my son passed away from this planet. Oh, coming up on eight weeks ago tomorrow, this planet Coming up on eight weeks ago tomorrow, he left, on February 17th, via a car accident at the age of 18.

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And I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that these experiences that I'm going to start talking about were spiritually preparing me for his departure, and that his departure was a soul contract between he and I, and that it was going to be the catapult, not a catalyst I was already lit a catapult that thrust me full warp speed ahead into depths of my heart and my soul that I didn't even know were there Places in me I didn't even know existed so that I can really step much more into the sacredness of the work that I came here to do as a soul. So the first thing I want to talk about is this experience of grace, and I shared on Instagram this morning that you can't love another person purely until you purely love yourself, until you purely love yourself. And we hear a lot about this love yourself in the you know the jargon, if you will of the spiritual communities. But what does it really mean to love yourself? And for some reason, I was gifted the experience of grace last May, in May of 2024, when I was in Bali, and I'm going to share that story with you because it was a life review that I had while I'm still alive, and I don't know why I was gifted this experience, other than to say it was part of the spiritual preparation of 2024 for everything that's happened in 2025, because this was the beginning catalyst that really started to shift me aside from earlier. That year.

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In 2024 was when I did my first connecting with the creator class and went through an initiation, and then I joined the luminaries of sound, which was a Kundalini mantra group. So I began a rigorous Kundalini practice for myself and then, in conjunction with doing those two things, in conjunction with doing those two things, I think it was this experience in Bali that really kicked it off. So we went to Bali and I talked a group of people into going to a sound bath, of course, and I found this beautiful place called the Pyramids of Chi and we all went and when I walked in, there was a man doing the sound bath and I've never had a sound bath from a dude before. I've had them co-ed, but never a man by himself doing a sound journey and I observed that you walk into the Pyids of Chi and it's this big metal pyramid and right when you walk in you see his setup, and there was a little pit that he steps down into, surrounded by three giant gongs facing three sides, and then he had set up a whole bunch of Tibetan bowls around this whole U-shaped setup. He had a big gathering drum, he had a didgeridoo and, of course, his voice, and so I knew, just by looking at all of these instruments with what he had, that this was going to be a very activating sound bath, because gongs are activating, tibetan bulls are activating, the drum is grounding, the didgeridoo is so grounding from the earth. And then he, his voice, was very beautiful, and so during the sound bath, I was spinning out of my body so much that I had to sit up because it was making me so dizzy. And so I was sitting up and he came in the sound bath, had my eyes closed and he came right in front of me. I could sense his presence and he started to sing right in my face, and so I'm feeling this vibration coming from him, this energy, and then he moved on around the sound journey. So at the end of it I've walked over. Of course, he's standing at the door and I gave him a hug and I said thank you, that was a really beautiful, sound journey. And he said you do this for a living, don't you? And I said I do, how did you know that? And he just smiled at me and he said I could just tell His name was Sky and he was from Denmark, I believe.

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So that next morning I went to bed that night and I woke up the next morning and I was sobbing in my bed. I woke up sobbing, feeling intense grief, and I didn't know why. I just woke up like this and it was that kind of crying where you're like shaking and I was shaking the of crying where you're like shaking and I was shaking the bed because I was crying so hard. So I got up and I went outside because I didn't want to wake up my husband and it was raining beautiful Bali, tropical rain, and we were staying at this beautiful hotel and we had our own private villa that had our own private pool that overlooked the jungle, and so I took off all of my clothes and I got into the pool. So I'm immersed in the water and it's raining and I'm crying. And I started asking why am I crying?

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What is this grief that I'm experiencing and all of a sudden I was taken into this space of consciousness where I was an observer of my life and I could see from this very non-judgmental place, this very non-judgmental point of view. I could see myself and witness myself and feel and experience myself as the eyes of love and as me. And so I saw, all of a sudden, I saw this life review go through my life Like it was, and it was so fast it was like. But each moment I could feel and see every word, every thought, every action I had done that had hurt another person. And I saw it not only from my eyes of love, seeing myself as love and seeing these errors in judgment I had made in hurting another person, and I experienced the hurt that they felt. It was so intensely painful to experience this and it wasn't a grief that was from judgment it's so hard to articulate. It was from a grief that, a true sorrow, that when you know you've done something and you know you've done something wrong, you know you've done something wrong and you can see with such clarity the error that you made and you feel so sorry for having done that thing and you're experiencing the pain that you caused at the same time, which makes the sorrow even that much more intense.

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And so I had this experience of having a life review while I was still alive. It was very intense, it was very painful, and when it was finished and I was caught up to the moment where I was back in Bali, back in the pool, I had this awareness come over me that I could choose forgiveness, that I could choose love or I could choose judgment, like it was totally up to me how I wanted to interpret this experience that I just had, and so I very humbly chose forgiveness. And in this choosing of forgiveness, this atonement this is really the experience of the atonement which, if you look at the spelling of the word atonement, is at-one-ment. It's like this reconciling back to the creator. And I chose that and with that came this very intense feeling of humility, reverence, awe, responsibility, like it's a big choice to make, to carry that and to be aware of that.

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And it wasn't long after that experience that God, creator, source, the universe, no-transcript and false light and also began removing from me my own behaviors that I was doing that was keeping me stuck in my conditioned self, most of which was drinking and binge eating, drinking alcohol, binge drinking alcohol. I was a binge drinker, even last year I did it four times. I did it four times and each time it's such a disaster Because my self would check out, my conscious self, my new self that's coming on board, would check out and my conditioned primal self would come online, these primal desires of sexuality and wanting to drink more and just wanting to dance. I mean, it was just ridiculous. Just ridiculous, rooted in pain. But also makes me wonder if, when we are highly intoxicated, our soul has checked out of our body and this something else can come and inhabit us. These fourth dimensional, disembodied entities can take over and inhabit our body for its pleasure, which of course causes us misery.

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And so I stopped doing that as well because of this experience of grace and grace if you're wondering what that is, and because I had always wondered about grace I always, you know, I hear the word and I would read the definitions, but I didn't know the experience of grace, and to experience something is to know it. Now you have gnosis, so I just wanted to read some definitions of grace and it says unmerited favor or divine assistance given by source often described as a gift not earned or bargained for A spiritual presence that blesses, heals, forgives and uplifts blesses, heals, forgives and uplifts. In mystical terms, grace is the active presence of love that descends into the heart when one surrenders the illusion of separation and allows the divine to move through them. And that's exactly what it was. Was this kind of surrendering that happened? And if you've listened to any of my talks or my podcasts or anything, I also share this experience. That wasn't grace, but I think it was the precursor to this, which was in December of 2022.

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So two years before this, I was out drinking, was highly intoxicated, in a bar late at night, and I had this experience where my consciousness flew up and out of my body and went into this pure state of observational witnessing, like there was zero judgment. And as a mere human back in my body with my brain functioning, mere human back in my body with my brain functioning, I cannot experience that experience of zero judgment because we're always making judgments, we're always looking like do I want this? Do I not want this? Does this agree with me? Does this not agree with me? Is this true for me? Is this not true for me? Do I desire this? Do I not desire this? Do I like this? Do I not like this? What do I think about this? What's my opinion about this? Like we can't help it. That's what our mind does. We can notice it after it does it and then stop it. But I know that our first instinct is to self-validate our own reality.

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So, to go into this consciousness space of pure witnessing, observation in this bar, I looked down at myself, I looked at everybody in there and there was no judgment. I could just see the pain and the wounding that everybody in there was in and experiencing and inebriating themselves from as a distraction. And then I looked down at myself and said what vibration of consciousness do you want animating your body? And I popped back into my body and I've been answering that question ever since. And so then I got to have this experience of grace in Bali, and there is so much more to the story of 2024 having to do with the divine masculine.

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But I know that this man, sky, carried the frequency of grace and he transmitted the frequency of grace onto the field of everybody at that sound bath, which is why it awakened in me, because I also know, as a sound healer, that the most important instrument in a sound bath is me, and it's for me to get out of the way, my personal self to get out of the way, my small, conditioned self to get out of the way, so that this much higher force can flow through me. And I know that mine is also a field of grace. It's the most powerful gift we can receive, and so I know that he transmitted that vibrational frequency of grace and I received it because I was in a place to receive it, because I had already been doing so much work and this experience of really truly falling in love with myself and then freeing people from my life that were not good for me and I wasn't good for them either, right? So let's be honest here.

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The relationship itself was not harmonious. Relationships there's been more than one, and this releasing doesn't come with this attitude of I'm better than you or I'm I don't know, all of these things you hear in the quote unquote high vibe communities of I'm all light and love. Until you piss me off, I'm like, nope, that's not it, that's ego, that's not it. Love releases a person to their own journey, without the judgment, without the attachment, without the need to change them, without the need to make them wrong for their journey, but just in a loving realization that it's not in a vibrational alignment with me anymore, that I'm not, in order to transform my vibration. Or when you do transform your vibration, things that are not in resonance with you, people who are not in resonance with you, will simply just vibrate out of your life and there doesn't have to be any. You're wrong about it so much as we are now just on different journeys and I love every single person that I've had in my life.

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They served such a tremendous purpose and I know that I have in theirs as well, and how they interpret their relationship with me is none of my business. That's everybody's own individual experience. But what's mine to carry is this grace, which doesn't judge, and that the same grace that I've been given in seeing the mistakes that I've made and how I've hurt other people, I give that loving compassion and kindness to others as grace given back. So this is the first part of the story. Is grace, this love, this kindness toward the self, to love oneself purely, which is to see your truth about yourself, not a delusion about yourself, but to see the truth about your true nature, the conditioned self, the small self, the self that is selfish, the self that hurts other people, the self that seeks gain, the self that is greedy, the self that is pleasure seeking, the self that wants to escape, the self that likes to distract and numb. This small self, the small conditioned self, this egoic self, that is the mask we wear, that tells the world this is who I am. And when we're coming from this small conditioned self, we're wearing a mask that's false. And oftentimes, when we don't even know who we are, we mask and mirror the people in front of us. We're just chameleons, pretending to be whoever we're like. We're around because we don't know who we are, rather than staying in this strong sense of knowing who we are, which is where I'm at now.

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I am not the same woman I was a year ago. I'm not even the same woman I was eight weeks ago. I'm not the same woman. I was on February 16th, and I'll never be that woman again. I'll never be that woman again. I'll never be that woman again.

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Anybody who's lost a child, anybody who's lost anybody that they really love, is forever changed by that experience. But I would say, even more so when it's your child, because that is a living, breathing part of you that you created, that came from your body. There's no pain like it. But I've let that pain break me, open instead of closed, because death is a part of life. It's the inevitable period at the end of all of our sins. It's coming for every single one of us, and so this fire has been lit under me now to live my purpose even more than was already there to serve god, goddess, to serve humanity, the soul of humanity, and that dropped in very clearly for me just within the last eight weeks what my purpose and mission is here, and it's to resurrect the hearts of women, to reclaim the soul's expression. That's our true self, the self we weren't allowed to be, the self we were told to stop it. You know, you see parents with these little spunky kids and they're like stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it, no, no. And I'm like, oh, let's rechannel that energy, because they're being who they are. We don't want to squash who we are, and almost all of us have been squashed who we really are, and we're afraid to be that person, and that's why we live from our ow. The original wound that taught us who we are is wrong, and so we want to reclaim that soul expression.

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Resurrect our heart, reclaim our soul expression and live a sacred life. And what does it mean to live a sacred life? It means to treat your time as sacred, to treat the world as sacred, to treat your relationships as sacred and to love yourself purely. And when you purely love yourself, then you can purely love others, because the same grace that you have been given, because the same grace that you have been given, you can give to others, because as you give, you receive, and you only receive through the giving of that which you are. And I'm going to start sharing a lot of these experiences and these talks because my hope is for everybody to awaken their heart, the true nature of who they are, who you are, which is a beautiful, precious soul having a human experience for a little while. And, as Mary Oliver said, what do you plan to do with this wild and precious life? So this week's frequency is the frequency of love, 528 hertz, and I've octavized it down to 264 hertz for those who can't sing that high. And I invite you to tone this frequency for the next 30 seconds, while holding the intention to experience grace for yourself, taking a deep breath in. So, so, and now let's get your freak on my beloved. This is this week's frequency transmission and I invite you to close your eyes, place your hand on your heart and repeat these words of activation after me and this is a grace activation prayer I attune to the frequency of grace.

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I let go of the story of earning, striving or proving my worth. I am already loved. I am already loved. I am already chosen. I open the temple of my heart. I breathe in the sacred softness of love. I exhale every layer of resistance.

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Grace is the music my soul remembers. Its warmth flows through me like a golden nectar, bathing my cells in light, rewriting every memory with love I receive. I allow, I become. I choose forgiveness, I choose the atonement. I choose the atonement. I am the frequency of grace embodied. I do not need to earn it. It is freely given because I am divine. With these words, I resurrect my heart. I embody the frequency of my soul's expression and I choose to live a sacred life. I let it be so, and so it is Amen. Thank you for listening. I invite you to remember that you are the temple. You are made of music and light and you are the vibration of the divine. Hum your truth, speak from your soul and walk in the frequency of the new earth. I invite you to like, subscribe and share this podcast and until we meet again, may every sound lead you home.